30 years old
Growing up I was overweight but had very muscular legs. I remember weighing 180lbs at 5ft 4in in 9th grade. I was ok with my body but sometimes wished i weighed less. I made myself a promise that i would not have sex until i felt good about my body. I didnt want to need a man to feel good about my body. In 200 I had got down to 160lbs and had lost the baby fat. I had stretch marks and my little belly pouch but I looked good, and I was content. Shortly after going on birth control then losing my job in 2003 i started to gain weight. i was 200lbs. by the time i got pregnant in 2007 (26years old) i weighted 220lbs. I gained exactly 20lbs by the time i had him in november of 2007 via c section. By the time i went to my 2 week checkup i was down to 212lbs and was so happy. After that I went back to work and was getting stressed out, and started drinking and started gaining weight again. when i stopped drinking and started watching what i eat and excercising, i still couldnt lose any weight. In nov of 2009 I found out i was pregnant again. I was excited but wasnt thrilled about starting my pregnancy at 250lbs. I miscarried at about 6 weeks pregnant. Then in feb of 2010 i found out i was pregnant again. Again i miscarried at 5 weeks. Finally i was able to go see a doctor in june of 2010. When i got there i told the doctor i was a week late for my period. i had only had one period since my second miscarriage and my period before that was always 28 days at 10am. it was that exact. the doctor told me i hadnt started because i had gain so much weight. I wasnt happy with that remark because i had been stuck at 250lbs since 2008. They ended up doing a blood test that wednesday to see what might have been causing my miscarriages. on that friday i got a call, it was my thyroid that was slow and making me sleeping, and not able to lose weight. They called in a prescription for me and i went to get it. I decided i would start it that next day however, saturday i decided to take a test just to see and it was positive. i called up the hospital to make sure it was ok to take the medicine and they said yes. If had i hadnt started it, i probably wouldve miscarried again. When i started that pregnancy i was 252lbs. when i had my little boy in feb of 2011 i weight only 258lbs. i was very pleased that i didnt gain to much. when i went back to my 2 week appointment i weighted 231lbs. i was very very excited. I have since got down to 224lbs and am trying to lose a little more weight not because i dont like how i look but because i got clothes that are size 16 and im size 18 and cant afford to buy new clothes. However if i dont go down i am very happy with my body. i got stretch marks all over my belly. with my second pregnancy i got stretch marks on my little pouch for getting smaller and the upper part of my stomach i got stretch marks for getting bigger.
first picture is me about 34 weeks pregnant with my first son
second is me in 2008
third is of me 9 weeks pregnant with second son
fourth is me 6 months pregnant
fifth is of my two miracles
sixth is me posing in front of my camera with my oldest mocking me